A friend popped up after a long hiatus online. He and I spoke for a little while and talked about a few things. A few things I brought up that I was bitter about and I wanted to know the truth. His repulsed reaction to a certain…rumor made me realize that once again I was used as well as the person that informed me. So the rumor has been downcast unless he was drunk when it happened, which would explain why he’s probably quitting.
I’ve entered a fun adult relationship with someone recently. Because of a few things, I find it rather hard to be fully trusting. In the back of my mind there is this little nagging feeling that maybe, just maybe I’m setting myself up for another fall into the dark cold hole. He acts genuine, but its hidden from public view.
Not only is there this drama llama stampede, there’s things floating around irl that are rather bothering me. My cousin is a bitch. She called me to boast about a new boyfriend and when I asked her what he was going to do for her on V-day, she went into defense mode. I don’t exactly remember everything she said, but it really hurt. She spoke needles into my flesh that sunk to the bone.
Not only that, but earlier tonight she called me to act all happy. She told me more info about this new boy she has and then she started bitching at me again. If I don’t fly down that flight of stairs at my own force, I might throw her down them.
I am really tired of it. I can count on one hand the number of people I trust.
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