Ever get the feeling that sometimes you should just give up trying to do something? Probably making plans and waiting for them to go through and just giving up hope when the decided time is long since past is just a load of bull you should just stop doing?
It probably happens to a lot of you out there often, possibly too often. You're left with that glorious feeling of being the "fall back" person, or at least there to keep someone from being lonely. Always there for when things decide to not be as interesting as first thought or someone's bored and FINALLY remembers you exist.
When asked what happened, the excuse sometimes is hard to figure whether it involves "Oh, I forgot about you!" or "I figured you wouldn't care!" or some other nonsense along those lines. These leave you blinking for the rest of the night.
That unhappy feeling of not being recognized as another person in someone's life is just...awful. It makes you question things you haven't before and brings you to a state of paranoia: "Did I really get bumped off under an assumption?" "Well. Now what the fuck am I going to do if people don't want to be around me?" "Could it possibly be that I'm boring and entirely incapable of human contact on such an entertaining level?" "What in bloody hell happened in my past lives to deserve this deja vu!?" "Hurray! Last minute cancellation? Why?!" "Do I constantly smell bad?"
The truth is, that feeling has been with me since forever, from parents to aunts and grandparents to friends. Don't get me wrong, not all of you do this, but it does happen.
Ever try to explain the deja vu to someone and not being able to exactly get the point across? Not implying that said person is ignorant, just that its lost in translation.
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